Bring me the largest size in the store
For I skinned my heart and ate it whole
My skin is waiting for room to explode
But I wasn’t always a food whore
Mothers loved me as a child
For a never refused a morsel
Girls hated my body’s guts
For it welcomed every kind of filth
But it never showed
Now I roam the nights alone
Through the bright light of my phone
I’m too ashamed to explore
My body’s unsightly folds
When did it come to this?
That girl in the mirror wonders
I rarely see her these days
Can’t meet her eye
Because I never slowed
I tell myself I’m not old
I still have time to atone
These sins of a skin too tired to hold
This bag of filthy food and bones
The girl she sighs – walking off the mirror
She’s given up and so have I
Every time a void is filled
With chocolate muffins and cherry pies
But I tell my soul
One more bite and I will be done
One more cake and he’ll be forgotten
Eat broken hearts and feel none
Feed my anxiety to calm it down
The girl in the mirror is back with her evil smile
Telling me how vile and ugly I was at every bite
I’m down a rabbit hole now aren’t I
For she was the reason I ate my pride
